Posted by B2chica on June 15, 2007, at 9:00:17
In reply to Re: i HATE my Brother » B2chica, posted by Dory on June 14, 2007, at 19:02:19
yes dory it is because of my issues of guilt and anger.
something that took me a couple years of therapy to even admit i had...
mostly i see her as a pathetic human with flaws and pain of her own...i feel pity for her...then she opens her mouth and i realize that that pity is wasted. she's just messed up and makes me angry.it reminds me not so much of guilt of hitting her...since i actually feel kinda proud of myself for fighting back (for once). but it actually brings back the feelings that i felt when i was living with her. how she Always made me feel ashamed of who i was. feelings of shame about my thoughts, feelings and body. of yes, like you said being hurt by her. the first woman in the line of many to hurt me.
thank you for your support.
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