Posted by B2chica on June 14, 2007, at 11:50:10
In reply to Re: i HATE my Brother » B2chica, posted by sunnydays on June 14, 2007, at 10:06:08
ya. he isn't good for me or my child considering how abusive he was to me when i was young.
but i really do like his wife and my nephew. i wish there was a way that i could keep her and get away from him.
i struggle with my 'dislike' for my 'mother and brother, since i don't necessarily want them dead, but i've often thought how much better my life would be without them in it....its horrible i know. and i need to learn to not ignore run or hide from my emotions that they invoke within me....but there it is. in all its ugly truth.it makes me cry i wish SO much for my daughter NOT to be exposed any of the pain i've struggled through. i thank God for my MIL. she represents what a real mother is. caring, supportive, but not intrusive...and a lot sharper than anyone gives her credit for....i wish she were my mother. but in a way she is. in fact i told my daughter (she can't understand yet) that that grandmother is more of a mother to me now, than i've ever had. She is an example to follow. unfortunately she is already 75 and i'm scared that something will happen to her before my daughter can really know and remember her...this makes me Terribly sad.
...this conversation is making me sad so i'm going to stop.
i love my father...but everyone else can burn.
poster:B2chica
thread:763118
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