Posted by peddidle on February 9, 2007, at 21:59:15
In reply to Maybe I'm not so good at therapy *assorted Trig*, posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on February 9, 2007, at 20:38:30
> Yikes. Now I have a goal. Therapy seemed less threatening somehow when it was just a series of nebulous conversations where she would remind me of stuff that I've reported before and help me make connections between past events and present behavioral (mal) adaptions.
**I completely understand. I hate when my T brings up the "goals of therapy" too. I don't think it means you're "bad" at therapy. Maybe it just means you're afraid of actually dealing with the serious stuff. Believe me, I love having conversations with my T about celebrity gossip and other nonsense, but I shutdown as soon as she steers the conversations towards important matters.
>My dream consisted of my T being present at an ObGyn exam, but she didn't examine me, we just had our usual chat. At the end, though, I felt myself collapse on the floor, because I remembered how traumatic my ObGyn experiences were, and I felt like If my T HAD BEEN THERE, I would have been allright. and then I was huddled collapsed on the floor, and I felt something nice and silky- maybe a robe or a cover, and she hugged me deeply, and it felt protective and nurturing.
**I had a dream about my T recently where she was putting braces on me. I'm *SURE* that's symbolic. I would love to tell her. Who am I kidding, I'm not going to tell her.
I think it's great that you are able to tell your T about your dreams at all. It's also great that she made you feel so protected, even if it was only in a dream.
> There. I've told the whole WWW. I've even written it to her. Why can't I SAY it to her. T- you were protecting me with your embrace in my dream. Thank you for being there.**It's OK if you can't say it to her. If you've written it to her, and she's read it, she knows. You're moving in the right direction. I'm sure at some point you wouldn't have even imagined writing something like that to her, and now you've done it. Writing is a step in the right direction, you'll be able to say it eventually.
By the way, this is all very "do as I say, not as I do." :)
> Why can't I say the hard stuff? Only write it?
**I'm hardly the best one to help you with this, because I can't even write things down for my T to read. I'm working on it though. Maybe one day we'll both get there. :)
(Wow, that was abnormally optimistic of me)
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