Posted by ElaineM on February 9, 2007, at 21:35:59
In reply to Maybe I'm not so good at therapy *assorted Trig*, posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on February 9, 2007, at 20:38:30
>>>>>Yikes. Now I have a goal. Therapy seemed less threatening somehow when it was just a series of nebulous conversations...
Does having a goal seem any less threatening to remember that there's not a set-in-stone timeline by which it has to be reached? Or does visualizing a goal suggest *expectations* or something - like, if there's a mission of sorts, the mission may have to be done perfectly?
Or does it not bother anymore once she got it out there.>>>>>>...and I felt something nice and silky- maybe a robe or a cover, and she hugged me deeply, and it felt protective and nurturing.
LL, this part is so dear. :')
>>>>>Why can't I SAY it to her. T- you were protecting me with your embrace in my dream. Thank you for being there.
I think it was pretty great how much you were able to say. Do you think not being able to say it in your session has to do with need, or no? Like if you say it to her, it could be like voicing your need or wish for protection like that, then, but also now? For me, I may have felt embarassed cause I never used to hope for, or talk about, or share sensitive, nurturing moments with my mom. And saying it to my T would feel like saying it to my mom, a little -- at least in my head. I used to feel humiliated even crying infront of my mother. I don't know. Trying to understand. Ignore me if I say dumb stuff.
I still think you're plently good enough at therapy LL. ANd good for you for initiating an appointment. I know that the longer you put something off [for me, finally showing my face at the dentist] the harder and harder it gets to make it a possibility. Apprehension and fear (and emabarassment, for me at least) just grows bigger each year. So, no lectures here....thumbs up. And safe hugs. {{{Lurp}}}
blove, El
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