Posted by Racer on November 1, 2006, at 12:24:20
In reply to Exactly Racer, posted by muffled on November 1, 2006, at 2:36:40
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> Denial is good.
> But my T wants me to explore emots...
> I dunno if I can do that.I know, though, Muffled. You *can* do that. I know.
Denial is like a friend who manipulates you, and persuades you to do things that end up hurting you, making you feel bad about yourself later. Denial is the friend who talks you into staying out late on a work night; convinces you to pay for tickets you can't afford -- and buy her one, too. Denial is not really your friend, only someone who makes you feel less lonely for a while. And in the end, Denial will abandon you, after alienating all your real friends, leaving you more lonely than ever.
There are a lot of things in my life I can't stand to think of. I can't stand to admit they happened, or that they can't be undone. I push them away with all my strength, and I Deny them. But Muffled? I know I need to make friends with what really happened. That's what's real, that's what will help me, in the end.
I hope you believe me, and that you can work with your T to make peace with the memories and the emotions.
poster:Racer
thread:699503
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20061026/msgs/699576.html