Posted by muffled on October 17, 2006, at 15:29:46
In reply to got a letter from anne, posted by wishingstar on October 17, 2006, at 9:48:24
> Dear wishingstar:
>
> I received your mesage earlier this week withdrawing your rquest for a last session. I think you;re right in that a last session would have been unlikely to be productive. I also hear the pain in your words and in your voice. And I know that when a relationship is no longer productive, it is often best for it to end, sad and difficult as that may be.
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> So as our relationship ends, I send with you my hopes for places of comfort and strength, relationships that support your growth and facilitate your healing, and involvements that call forth the energy you have to give to the world.
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> Best wishes,
> Anne
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>
> I guess that's a nice letter.***Kinda short and cold and to the point....
I should be glad she sent it, right? I'm not.
****Yup, its kinda short and cold and to the point.
I would have prefered hearing nothing from her ever again over that. That feels so.. I just dont know. I dont even know how to explain how it feels. But I've been crying ever since I opened it. I guess I hoped for someone more.. not an invitation back to see her by any means (i wouldnt take that anyway), but... something. I hate her. I really do. I wish she would just die. And I've never, ever said that about a person before (or even felt it). I just hate this.
***You may not actually wish she would ie deep in your heart, but really, the fact that you feel so strongly bout the whole thing surely should be of interest to your current T because its proly indicative of an inner prob. that needsa to be dealt with. old baggage.
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> I see Ginny at 1. Thank goodness. But Laurie basically told me on Friday that they both are concerned I'm obsessing over this, so who cares. I cant talk about it to them without further pathologizing myself. I cant do this anymore. This is just too much.***DO talk about it. Thats what T is FOR. To help you process your stuff. Thats exactly their job. Let them help you. They can't help if you won't be honest.
I hope your new T turns out to be a good one. She seems she might. I alternately thot my T was wonderful and also an idiot....but right now i'm mostly in wonderful mode!!! LOL. And its nice.
I hope you can get in wonderful mode soon.
Take care,
Muffled
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