Posted by muffled on October 2, 2006, at 12:00:51
myT has seen me and hubby once together.
Mostly I wanted my hubby to meet T so he would know she ok.
My hubby is a GOOD, GOOD, man.
He works hard and is not around much in summer months.
So btwn. kids and distance, its always a challenge for me to get back on track with him when things slow down.
Hubby is quite prepared to be with me anytime.(WITH in the you-know-what way)
But I don't like when he's not been around much.
Then I just feel used.
I never good at intimacy. Ugh.
Never good at letting people close.
Now its like I get real bothered by him :-(
I don't know why?
Sh*t.
And I dunno how to say this to T?
Cuz......its just weird for me.
To talk like that to her.
Like about me.
And I feel dirty and bad and ashamed.
Damn.
I am avoiding it.
Mebbe it will just go away?
Once hubby around more?
I can pretend, though its hard when you start to retch....
I never been abused in that way.
Never.
AS ever I am SO confused.
Maybe this makes no sense.
Good.
Muffled
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