Posted by wishingstar on September 30, 2006, at 9:04:15
In reply to Re: update... talked to randy » wishingstar, posted by TherapyGirl on September 28, 2006, at 17:43:13
Well, the "new T" called yesterday. She said she only works 2 days a week so she cant see me this week.. so I have an appointment for Tuesday the 10th. She seemed very nice on the phone. I gave her my address and she said she used to live in the very same apartment complex.. weird, huh? And since I dont have mental health insurance, I've been paying Laurie and Anne out of pocket ($75 and $45) but the best part is, this woman works for a nonprofit org so I'll only be having to pay her $10 a session! That will be a huge help for me.
I also saw Laurie yesterday. Laurie is wonderful. It wasnt a perfect session, if that even exists.. there are some things she missed I wish she hadnt.. but overall, it went well. We talked about how I feel so invisible and no one ever clls me back. I didnt talk much about it because the tears were just too close (I have a very hard time crying in front of people) and she let me change the topic. I sort of wish she hadnt, but at the same time, I'm glad she did. We talked about termination when I start with the new T abd it feels okay. Laurie said that just because I stop doesnt mean I cant ever come back.. and I really feel like she means it. I dont feel like I'm losing her forever. (I saw her 6 years ago and then took a long break before seeing her now as well). I told her that we didnt need a termination, she could just call Randy and let him know and that'd be just fine and she laughed and said okay, shed do that (it was, of course, a play on what Anne did.. Laurie would never do that). Anyway, thats longer than I meant for this to me. I hate that I cant keep seeing Laurie, but I guess I feel pretty good about this new woman so far.
Laurie was encouraging me to think about going back into partial. I just finished a week and a half ago. I told her I dont think its possible.. group is always helpful, but all the workshops would be the same, and many didnt apply to me the first time around even (I dont have anxiety issues, and many focused on that). But I'm still spending a lot of time in bed, just unable to do anything. She wants me to call Randy to talk about this. Maybe I will... but I really dont think theres much he can do. I just have to wait until I find some meds that work.
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