Posted by zenhussy on September 22, 2006, at 12:13:07
In reply to I am ze Terminator, posted by Lindenblüte on September 22, 2006, at 11:26:55
yep, can only stay in the head for so long, eh?
stepping stones is a good way to think of this...as this is NOT depression as you knew it before....these are other issues that you're now ready to begin your work on.
it takes courage to move on from someone who isn't the best fit for the next stage of work but staying with him sounds as if it wouldn't have helped you progress forward in the ways you have written about recently.
good luck with the future. good for you for realizing you need assistance with this work and for seeking out appropriate therapists.
going from living in the head with only surface emotions to fully feeling one's emotions and experiencing them can be a whirlybird feeling for most. after a while of talking and feeling this new way things might not hurt quite to the extent they do now........as this feeling thing is still rather new. with time you'll see that the changes you're making will serve you in the long run far better than how things have been up til this point.
continued good therapy wishes for a strong working woman who is facing her stuff. takes courage to admit and work on these kinds of issues. will be interesting to see a few years from now where you're at!
certainly helps us to re-read our posts from the past several years to chart our progress and help us see which areas still need attention and more work. professional therapy has been a constant, even with breaks inbetween, to work on csa issues in addition to the depression and PTSD. wish it could be done with only books and websites however something about that connection with a therapist and the safety of the office where the work can take place is very different from flying solo.
we all need a co-pilot from time to time to help us remember where the horizon is, the need to refuel, help with charting flight paths, and practice on safety inspections so that the vessel doesn't bopping about when in need of repair.
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