Posted by happyflower on September 16, 2006, at 8:17:32
I know with my anniversary tommorrow, it must be making me I don't know what it is making me.
Anyways I mentioned last session about my DH thinking he has OCD, since he has been reading my textbooks and now he is renting a Pysch college classes on tape from the library. This all came about because his estranged daughter was dianosed with bi polar and he was asking what I know about it. I am certaintly not an expert and all I know is what I learned from my readings and from the teachers,and of course babble. Well I showed him my bi polar stuff so he could read it, well he also started reading about the other disorders . Then he started confiding in me about things he does.
I knew had had generalized anxiety disorder, that was very clear but I didn't see the other stuff.
Well I talked to me T about this and he confirmed as much as he could that it does sound like he has OCPD. My T knows a lot about my DH, but didn't know the stuff I didn't know until now.After reading about it for myself, yeah it sounds like he does. Plus lately he is talking about some of the stuff he does(that he has kept hidden from me).
So part of me feels so stupid for not seeing the signs and maybe being not sensitive to some of this stuff (because it really gets on my nerves sometimes). But then again I didn't know about disorders until I got PTSD and came to babble. And I guess he kept some of his "checking" hidden from me.
I guess I am feeling kinda sorry for my husband that he has these problems and he has lived with them for so long without any treatment. I guess I still care a little about him even after what he has done. So this is making me feel very conflicted even more. Or is he using this to get me to talk to him again?
I told him that he could get treatment for this stuff, but he has to talk to his doctor. He said he is too embarrest to talk about to him. Well I hope he does. I told him that if he wanted help, he had to seek it out.So I feel bad for him, but yet I am still very angry at him. I also feel bad for my lack of understanding when he seems to not be able to make a simple adult desision. or what tie to wear, or did I turn the oven off, or is the door locked, or did we leave anything in the hotel room when we check out. Plus being worried about something all the time, that must really suck.
I am not sure what I am feeling other than totally confused at the moment.
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