Posted by wishingstar on September 14, 2006, at 22:20:32
I remember that someone on here refers to their pdoc as dr clueless.. well, can Anne be dr clueless #2? She isnt a doctor (shes an LCSW) but thats okay. Just kidding.
As most of you know, I called and left her a message on Monday. Then ran into her at the health food store later that day. She said she'd call me the next day (which would have been tuesday). I still havent heard from her. From past experiences, she knows how sensitive I am to her not returning phone calls, especially when she says she'll do it at a certain time.
I actually do not have another appt yet, to answer your question Dinah. I was supposed to have one this wed (yesterday) but had to cancel it since I'm in partial during that time. The message on Monday was to cancel that and reschedule for next week. So basically, I'm in crisis mode, have no appt set up with her, and she wont call me back. Great. I dont know how she could have forgotten. I left her a message on her voicemail and saw her at the store both on the same day. At the store, I wrote and signed a release form for her that she took with her, so unless she believes it dropped out of the sky, she remembers seeing me. And last, that paper was a release for her to talk to Laurie, and I heard from Laurie today that Anne left her a message on her machine.
llrrpp, your suggestion in the thread above (that maybe she is feeling like shes failing and is staying away for that reason) is very possible. It hadnt crossed my mind and honestly, makes me feel a little better. Not that I want her to feel like a failure, but right now all I can think is that she hates me and doesnt care. If she felt like she wasnt helping me the way she wants to, at least she'd care. I wonder if it's true. Also, thank you for saying it doesnt make ME a bad person. I was repeating that to myself over and over tonight. Anne not calling me back when she knows how important it is to me is HER issue, and it isnt my fault. Thats what I'm telling myself. But it still hurts quite a bit. I'm a little afraid she is gearing up to drop me as a client. Maybe waiting to talk to Laurie before dropping me or something, and figures there's no reason to get me worked up before that? I dont know.
Like I mentioned in the thread above about my day in partial, Randy (the coordinator) called her today to leave a message and is going to get in contact with her soon. I told him that I think she hates me and I dont understand it. He's going to try to figure out what's going on. I hope it helps.
So here's my question for you all. Tomorrow morning I am going to call her and leave a message. She doesnt work on Fridays, so I assume she just wont call until Monday.. unless eh calls from home. What should I say? I want her to know I'm angry and hurt. I'm tempted to say something like "hi, my name is amanda, you may not remember me, but im the client who freaks out when you dont call me back" and be real bratty about it. I've also thought about something like "i know im overly sensitive to issues like this, and maybe youre trying to teach me not to be or something, but i could really use some sensitivity from you right now". I dont think it'll be a very nice message either way. Or should I wait until after Randy talks to her? I imagine shell call after that happens, but who knows. I sort of want to leave my message and get my anger out there before they talk, just to make sure she gets it. Advice? What do you think I should do?
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