Posted by wishingstar on July 16, 2006, at 20:56:36
In reply to Re: hospitalization » wishingstar, posted by Jost on July 16, 2006, at 20:30:40
I'm feeling really hopeless when it comes to other options right now.
As I've posted about, I'm seeing one T temporarily while I'm out of town, and have my regular T at home. I'll be back home in mid-August, although I dont know that going back will help (or hurt) much. I'm glad I have my Ts, but I can only afford once a week, and it just isnt cutting it at all right now.
Meds are a huge issue I finally gave up on a few weeks ago. My insurance will not cover the doctors visits or the meds, so there's no way I can afford a regular pdoc. I have called every agency I can find both in my hometown and my current city (right outside DC) and cannot find any place where I can be seen on a sliding scale without leaving my therapist and switching to one at their center, which is just not an option right now. I've also tried the free clinic, community service boards, etc. My university (I'm a grad student) has a counseling center and a contract with the local psych clinic to do free med management, but will not take me as a client... they require you have a therapist with them to get the med management, but because its brief therapy, will not allow me to have a therapist there. I've tried. I spoke with the director of the center to try to get around this, but no luck. It all makes me very mad.
Unfortunately my job is only 8 weeks long and I am the head teacher, so taking off time is just not feasible unless I was hospitalized or otherwise unable to make it. Time off is causing a lot of drama with the administration anyway right now, so asking could likely stir up a lot of trouble. I have thought of talking to the school director (who I know fairly well) and telling him what's really going on, but I know there's nothing he can do, so I'm not sure it's really worth it.
I think youre probably right that I wouldnt get what I'm hoping for in the hospital, at least in part. I know it wouldnt be warm and nurturing. I guess I've done such a good job of pushing away any close friends I had a year or so ago that I really dont have many supports anymore.
The biggest mistake I've made was accepting this job which required me to stay with my parents for 8 weeks. But too late now. There are only 4 weeks left, but this feels like an eternity.
I know you're right that it isnt the best solution and other supports would be better. I guess I'm just feeling awfully lost and helpless right now.
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