Posted by Tamar on June 14, 2006, at 17:14:57
In reply to Will he be there?, posted by Tamar on June 13, 2006, at 17:06:23
In fact, he was early. He was there before me.
I told him I'd been afraid he wouldn't be there and he said, "It's that basic, is it?" Uh, yeah. Because he wasn't there the previous week. I said I'd be content if I could leave the session feeling sure he'd be at the next one. And I think we managed that.
But I still feel pretty crap. I told him I wanted comfort and he didn't respond.
I feel so far away from him. I really really want to feel connected but everything I say seems to push his boundary buttons. I have told him in the past that I want to feel emotionally close to him; he didn't say anything in response to that either. And I also told him once that sometimes I feel like I'm falling and I want to reach out to him to ask him to help steady me (metaphorically). And he didn't say anything in response to that.
What am I doing wrong? Why won't he answer me? I know, I know. I have to ask *him* that. But I don't know if he'll answer that either...
Sigh.
It feels so difficult right now.
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