Posted by llrrrpp on May 30, 2006, at 21:37:12
Inspired by
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20060526/msgs/650655.html
Dear llrrrpp,
I know you're feeling really good right now. Maybe you're feeling too good. If you think you might be abusing caffeine, perhaps you should ask yourself if it's causing any problems. Like-- are your cuticles ripped to shreds? If the answer is yes, which I know it is, because I'm looking at your hands, perhaps the caffeine is just activating some anxiety within you.The caffeine is also a problem because it makes you kind of loquatious (sp?). People on Babble probably don't want to read your random thoughts. They are busy enough already. Haven't you taken advantage of their kindness already? Save their good will for the next crisis. Don't use up their energy reading your random, scattered, lonesome ponderings.
Have you thought about why you might be anxious? Is it because you see T tomorrow, and you don't know what you're going to say? Are you anxious because you got an e-mail from your mom, and she basically apologized for her absence in the big events in your life over the last 3 years? Are you anxious because you cautiously peek around, and don't see the cloud of depression over you, but you forgot to put on sunblock. Now that life is sunny, you're afraid of getting burned again? Is it possible that you're anxious that T will pronounce you "cured" and drop you like a hot potato, now that you're no longer in danger of terminating your life? Is it possible that you've grown rather fond of having the crutch of depression to lean on, using it to explain away all your failures in life, using it to lose weight from the anorexia of anhedonia? And now that the healthy llrrrpp is back, there is a quiet grieving for that crutch, because now you have no excuses for your laziness and inevitable stumblings?
Just a few thoughts. I don't mean to offend, llrrrpp. Once, I loved you.
sincerely ours,
-me, yourself, I
poster:llrrrpp
thread:650669
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20060526/msgs/650669.html