Posted by B2chica on December 2, 2005, at 12:07:01
In reply to Re: sexual issues in session ***Trigger*** » B2chica, posted by luvdove on December 2, 2005, at 1:00:18
man, i just can't believe how helpful you all are. thank you so very much for sharing. i still feel like a freak but i don't feel quite so ashamed or alone. thank you.
and ghost, thank you for sharing what you did about the fantasies. i can relate, i guess i hesitate to call them fantasies, but daydreams and such that i'm violently attacked by a total stranger. i think 1)having it be a total stranger or violent makes it more acceptable to say i was r@ped rather than it being someone i knew and me stupidly freezing up.
2)also, sometimes he attacks and i kick @ss, sometimes he attacks and i'm saved in the nick of time (usually by my T or some protective figure), and sometimes it happens and i dream about what i'd do this time.i think from all you who posted is making it a little easier to come out with this stuff. i've got major school stuff going on this next week so i told my T i want to keep it light. but after that...i might try to talk about it.
thank you ((((((((((all)))))))))))
for the wonderful support.
b2c.
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thread:584138
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