Posted by Tamar on December 1, 2005, at 16:31:59
In reply to Re: sexual issues in session ***Trigger*** » B2chica, posted by ghost on December 1, 2005, at 16:00:22
Hi ghost,
Thanks for having the courage to post what you posted. I think it is a source of much shame and distress when people have these kinds of fantasies.
I never had any fantasies like that until I started talking about it in therapy and then somehow they seemed to appear as if from nowhere. I tried to find information about it and apparently it’s fairly common to have fantasies about violence and rape after experiencing it. My own take on it is that it’s my brain’s attempt to retell my story and give it a happier ending… for example by fantasising about people I actually want to have sex with, or situations in which I actually enjoy it (unlike the real experience, which I certainly did not enjoy).
I think it’s also about trying to figure out what part of my experience was about sex and what part of it was about power. The whole point of a rape fantasy is that ultimately (unlike the real thing) I decide what happens.
Having said all that, I still don’t feel very comfortable about it and I’m sure I would find rape porn very distressing. It’s just too close to reality for me.
Tamar
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