Posted by ghost on December 1, 2005, at 16:00:22
In reply to sexual issues in session ***Trigger***, posted by B2chica on December 1, 2005, at 9:33:42
b2c,
wow. that's a huge question. i never really thought about it before. i haven't talked about it too much, so i don't really have any response to what you asked but i *will* (shamefully) admit that
*okay HUGE trigger here*
i have wicked st@lker/r@pe fantasies. i kind of wondered if they were related in some sick way. i mean, they must be, right? i feel like a total freak for it these days. i used to just shrug it off as one of my "kinks" but since i've kind of acknowledged the whole r@pe experience (sort of-- i brought it up that one time to T but haven't talked about it since), i just feel sick and dirty and used and afraid to talk about it.
that guy i sort of got close to recently admitted to having r@pe porn on his computer, and that kind of turned me off. like... part of me got excited (the physical part?) but the part of me that just admitted finally that she was r@ped was repulsed and disgusted.
now i'm confused because i thought i knew myself so well and it's like i threw a wrench in all that.
i guess i don't really have a response to your question. *i* don't think you're sick or perverted or *any* of those things. but it did strike a chord with me.
*hugs*
ghost
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