Posted by B2chica on November 9, 2005, at 12:27:27
i had a message all typed out (twice) and ready to submit but i just can't do it, delete, delete.
there is something that i need to say outloud and Just can't do it. my t knows it, my pdoc knows it, you all even know it, but i just can't say it. why? because i still don't feel like it applies to me. like i have nothing to b!tch about, i'm a lucky one cuz nothing ever happened that caused permanent damage.ok...i was...quickly-
i was sexually abused by my brother and neighbor boy from about age 7 to 11.
there...i don't even need any replies i just, well i just had to say it.
do i need to convince myself? could i be wrong? could my T be wrong? what if it really wasnt that bad and by saying that it was i'm demeaning those that really did suffer?
god I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!is my anger is starting to rise??
when will this end? i'm starting to think about death again, but this time i'm not depressed. don't worry i'm not a danger to myself. their thoughts, not ready to act them out.
b2c
poster:B2chica
thread:577105
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