Posted by Susan47 on October 29, 2005, at 16:42:44
In reply to It's so Nice To Think » allisonross, posted by Susan47 on October 28, 2005, at 18:33:25
I have to because obviously it's true. All the facts just stare me in the face and won't let go.
My last therapist was using me to feed his ego. I look at the way he behaves when he's around women, and he does it constantly with them. I believe he probably is the same way with his male patients as well. I think he works mostly at getting that nice little warm feeling when he thinks he's been helpful. I think he ignores and gets angry and disappointed when he can't see the forest for the trees. I believe he's self-delusional. I believe he operates mostly out of his ego. I wish he were different.
But I don't think he is. And evidence ALL the evidence points to the fact that I'm right.
I probably wouldn't have liked him in person.
I probably would have thought him shallow and self-serving.
And protective of himself to the point of hurting others.
My blinders might finally be coming off.
I may finally be seeing things the way they really are.
So, congratulate me.
I'm a stronger person than I ever was, but I had to walk through hell to get here. And I mean, how stable am I really?
I don't know.
But I do know when someone is hurting me, and I hope I'm getting strong enough to learn that someone else's ugliness does not have to reflect upon me.
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