Posted by happyflower on October 28, 2005, at 14:09:38
In reply to Re: Saw my T at the gym today » happyflower, posted by daisym on October 28, 2005, at 13:03:03
> I think it must be really hard to see him and not be able to talk to him the way you really want to. It would make me miss him even more -- "so close yet so far."
Yes, this is how I felt. I probably had a stunned look on my face when I saw him, because I was trying to avoid seeing him, but then I walked off the track and he was at the drinking fountain looking right at me. I wasn't smiling like I usually am. I am usually happy to see him, I wonder if I hurt is ego. LOL I at least muttered out a Hi back at him, but I couldn't look at him when I said it. I always have about 95% eye contact with him during our sessions.
I don't know if I can gain enough nerve to talk about this with him. I already knows what he feels about me, he has given me the non-special speech once too many times and I don't want to hear it again. I am hoping I can work through these feelings before my next apponintment on Thurs. , so I don't have to talk to him about it. I am a realist, and I know I just have to accept our relationship for what it is, and move on, and try not let the letting go hurt so much.
My DH is coming home from China tomorrow. I have been getting these mushy emails from him this week. I am like what? This is news to me. But it confuses me all the more with him. Maybe there is some hope with him after all. Thanks for your support, I am trying to hang in there! :) I did yoga today, and I was so relaxed, I came home and slept 2 hours.
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