Posted by orchid on October 25, 2005, at 20:12:05
In reply to Re: Does regression mean you haven't worked out fully? » orchid, posted by Tamar on October 25, 2005, at 15:52:51
Thanks Tamar.
Perhaps the reason why I still find it hard to not feel ashamed is the way my termination went. Maybe the reason why you find it little easier and not feel rejected is because you never told your T about your feelings.
Whereas I did tell him, and initially he was quite ok with it, but towards the end, he started getting irritated I think. So, during termination he was extremely abrupt and somewhat cold. And he didn't give me any reassurance or show any warmth or understanding. And he stopped all communication abruptly. So it led to even more feelings of shame and embarrasment and feeling untouchable and kind of like "you are not worth it" feeling.
Perhaps that is why it takes so long to heal. But you are right, it is much much better these days. I try to push it out of my mind and not let it bother me. And mostly I have made my peace also and am trying to find my own self worth. Plus things have been really better with my husband, so that is helping quite a bit.
Thanks for your understanding.
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