Posted by kerria on September 4, 2005, at 19:23:32
In reply to Re: Crisis - poss trigger again (long), posted by fairywings on September 4, 2005, at 9:31:33
((((((((((Racer))))))))))
((((((((Everyone)))))))
i wish i had more hope. there isn't enough hope. My family is so neagative. the morphine is making my voice slur - i wish it would take my pain away. Everyone in my family is so negative accusing .
everything is so hard.
i feel so unloved. There's so much pain. i don't think it will ever get any better or i will ever be treated to get out of pain without the hatred of my family. Tired of being accused that i'm a druggie. No one in my family has said anything except negatives and i'm always disappointing everyone- i hate myself- i'm too depressed to do anything.
i know i won't be able to look for another T now. i can't ever call the crisis line because they always send an ambulance. i never want to go inpatient and i never want to call T again.It feels like i can't make it- the medicine makes me feel so bad.
kerria
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