Posted by daisym on August 23, 2005, at 12:08:28
In reply to Re: Confusing meltdown, posted by annierose on August 23, 2005, at 10:32:14
It isn't the time as much as the timing. I'm lucky in that I mostly can come and go as I please from work. For the first time in 4 years I'll be the only driver for kid stuff in the area (my husband commutes an hour) and this is a big adjustment for me.
But more than that, I feel like I've given in to my therapy needs this summer in a big way and now I need to focus on other tasks. I spend too much time in my head, on my inner life. My therapist would argue that this is my mother's voice "nose to the grindstone" and all that. But I can't help but think she is right sometimes. You have to push yourself to get used to new things and change is hard, good changes or bad.
I guess I didn't realize that my sense of self was still so fragile that it could get shaken so easily and irrationally. The worst part is that I'm doing this to myself.
*sigh*
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