Posted by annierose on August 21, 2005, at 22:48:20
In reply to Re: Dasiy - how are you doing? » annierose, posted by daisym on August 21, 2005, at 19:10:26
Dasiy -
I'm so glad I asked. You are doing such hard work. I know. I keep saying that. But bringing in your baby self, you can't go much further than that. It's so important.
I brought in a dream this week. I think bringing dreams into therapy is a little scary. It's material that we are not quite ready to deal with, so the dream brings it to our therapist. And then together, we work on de-coding the information, like a puzzle.
I have experienced some body sensations in therapy before too. It brought me right back to 7th grade. I always had stomach aches, nausea, etc. So much so, the doctors ran tons of tests (I missed lots of school). In the end, the doctor told my mother, with me in the room, that I may be experiencing some depression, and should seek counseling. My mom used this information as punishment. Inside, I was thrilled at the possiblity to talk to someone. Instead, my mom threatened to take me to therapy if I didn't go back to school. I was a good kid. I went back to school, didn't want to cause trouble. So when a few weeks ago in therapy, I had that instant nausea sensation, it freaked me out. My T asked what could she do to help, if there was anything she should do differently. I didn't know how to respond. My mom never asked questions like that, how to help.
What type of sensations do you experience? Do you share them with your T? Is he able to help you? And can they help us with that? I don't know.
I agree with your T that you do not have to worry about him. We all feel sadness for what little Daisy endured. It is sad.
I think it's okay to go into tomorrow's session with nothing to say. Those are usually the most productive sessions. Your unconscious will bring the material. And I know you have the courage to speak the words (I'm learning this courage from you and other babblers all the time).
My daughter is only going into 6th grade, and college seems like some far off event in the not too distant future. It will be here before I know it. Three weeks and 2 of your sons are off? or just one? Imagine how the dynamics will change for the child left at home, and for mom and dad. Adjustment all around. Very difficult.
Let me know how tomorrow's session goes. Sharing my dream with my T surged my intensity need ... and I don't like it one bit! No siree. But I'm anxious to go to keeping working on this strange relationship we call "therapy".
Annierose
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