Posted by cockeyed on August 3, 2005, at 20:50:10
In reply to Lott: guest author for a week, posted by Dr. Bob on July 28, 2005, at 8:33:55
Hi, I'm a guy. Been reading Bob's blurb for a week. Figured it had nothing to do with...guys.
But I've had a bit of an epiphany. Since New Years I have harbored a "grudge" toward a Pdoc who is a member of the group my doctor belongs to. This has become a serious concern to me because since January I've harbored a vehement resentment toward this doctor. Resentment is not quite accurate. I want to confront him in a non-therapeutic situation, insult him and provoke and incident. This disturbs me greatly.and perhaps this is not the place for this subject. But...I don't know how else to put this: I cannot put my resentment, nor my anger, nor my rage at his arrogant and dismissive manner when I was in a position of extreme distress. I don't know how to phrase this. Basically I thought he was a guy I could talk to and he treated me, after the requisite 5 minute interview, as if I were a non-person.
I don't know if you deal with situations like this in which a male patient becomes enraged by the dismissive and totally impersonal
attitude of a so called professional.
Frankly, I want an apology but do not know, nor can conceive how to go about it.
I thought time passes, what the hell, I'll
forget about it.
But I haven't. and that is a thorn in my side. At times I cannot believe that I've conceived such an anger and disgust for a person who is doing a job. Or that it hasn't gone away.
but, I thought I'd bring up this sort of thing, whatever it is: I have the distinct feeling that it's the rage a convict would have for a jailer. I don't know if women go thru such
for want of a better word, hatred, or if you address such a situation.
But It's not yet 8/5 and I thought that since I've been obliviously reading Bob's announcements
perhaps I should raise the issue. I'll do so with administration [a rather convoluted way of spelling b.s. in todays world]
But does this sort of subject arise in your experience? Frankly, I'm afraid of accidental confrontation. I find that when my guard is down I often blow my stack, act out, get angry...etc. What's worse, it seems to work.
Mr. Nice Guy goes inappropriately ballistic.
I'd appreciate some references or advice.
Thanks, cockeyed.
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