Posted by Tamar on July 11, 2005, at 18:39:19
I really don’t want to go to work tomorrow. I was failing six months ago and I’m going to fail again. It’s so bad that I can’t think of a way to save it. I was given some advice, I took it, it turned out to be bad advice and things started to fall apart. And if it goes wrong enough, I could lose my job.
I can’t begin to imagine finding the resources to get things back on track. And I don’t know what I’ll do if I lose my job. And I don’t know if I can face the humiliation of everyone thinking how useless I am.
And I yelled at my daughter this morning, and my husband seems to be avoiding sex, probably because I’m so unattractive at the moment.
And I miss my therapist so much. I’ve been missing him all day. I wish I had a picture of him; I can barely remember what he looks like.
I just want comfort. And if I can’t have comfort, I want it all to go away.
Sorry for the rant.
Tamar
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