Posted by littleone on June 8, 2005, at 16:14:03
In reply to self-comfort » littleone, posted by Shortelise on June 7, 2005, at 13:28:05
Please know that all your messages have meant so much to me. They really helped me a lot.
I gave my original post to my T (along with a heap of other stuff) at my last session. I don't think I really realised it at the time, but I was really hoping for a few kind words from him. Just a little bit of comfort.
Not only did he not provide that, but he proceeded to try to tear down whatever comfort I do get from books - or anywhere else for that matter. We'd already talked about some upsetting stuff for me, so when he did this I was just heartbroken.
He was saying how I use books to avoid feelings. That I'm afraid of feelings. That I need to just stay in the feeling and feel it and try to understand it. And I can see some truth in what he says, but I also see a lot of holes. And it upsets me that he wants me to do this stuff without any comfort from anywhere.
So I was just a wreck and I'd decided to start seeing someone else (yes, running away, again) and I guess I managed to talk myself out of that one, but I certainly wasn't going back to him anytime soon. Nah ah, no way, not a chance.
And then I saw your posts and they all meant so much to me.
ShortE, I went to the book store and checked out the books you mentioned. I remembered that I loved "Watership Down" as a kid, but that it made me very sad. I read a bit of it at the bookstore and it really is so well written. I think I'll get it next time I'm there.
Your list and Daisy's post also reminded me of a book I used to have as a kid "The Muddle-headed Wombat" by Ruth Park and Noela Young. So I've been reading a bit of that. It's such a giggly book, but the best part are the pictures. They feel like such old friends. Every single one of them are familiar from my childhood. I did find it very comforting.
Also, I've been trying to get that movie you mentioned, but I don't think it's out here yet. I've been looking for a while now 'cause some other babblers mentioned it too (falls maybe?).
And I have felt a lot of support from you guys. I loved the crumbly marble pillar metaphor.
Falls, you are so brave going to the uni library. I've never done that. I always thought they would only lend out to students. Did you used to do a course there, or do they lend out to anyone?
Thank you for sharing your comfort things. I had a look at "The Woman's Comfort Book" on Amazon and I really liked the look of it. I've ordered a copy in.
So much for my T's instruction to ditch the books :)
Without your posts, I really don't think I would have been able to keep my next T appointment. I'm due to go later this arvo. Thank you for being my marble pillars.
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