Posted by daisym on May 14, 2005, at 18:03:22
In reply to Re: another cycle, posted by Shortelise on May 13, 2005, at 12:21:45
>>>>>>Now I see that one of the things that is really bothering me is that I don't know what the trigger is here. I mean, my post from a few days ago explains the situation, and it certainly brought back very bad memeories, but why this slide? Why this awful sadness? Yes, it's a failure of the front guard. And I do mourn my inability to roll with this punch. But most of all, I am confused. Why? Where is the depth of this coming from?
<<<<I've been thinking about what you wrote above on and off. Why? is such a tough question. I want to say it is because you have a soul, and an awareness of your feelings. Is that too trite? But really, I think you've learned not to wall off your feelings or ignore them. So you are more aware of them.I also thought that maybe some of your sadness about termination was mixed in here. You fought with yourself about calling your therapist and this brings home all these feelings about having to bear it alone. Or at least without him.
I question often whether being in touch with my feelings is such a great thing. Especially when I'm low and alone. I guess I change my mind to the answer every day.
I hope today is better for you and this swing down passes quickly.
Hugs from me.
poster:daisym
thread:497182
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