Posted by Poet on May 14, 2005, at 14:13:56
In reply to Another pity part for me, posted by daisym on May 13, 2005, at 23:02:33
(((((((Daisy))))))))
I regularly self medicate with alcohol, so no criticism for your maragaritas from me.
I'm sorry for what is happening at work, but try hard to remember that budget cuts are not your fault. Your staff won't yell at you, they understand. Their tears weren't angry tears they were I wish we could all still work together tears. They don't hate you.
I understand shredding your journal and electronic files. You are trying to wipe out some part of you, I try to eliminate the part of me who wants to be cared about. Show that I am an island who needs nobody. Is that how you feel, too?
I think it's okay if what is coming out on paper is anger. Pdoc told me that anger turned inward is depression. Maybe that's why your T didn't seem surprised that what you are letting out is anger.
Believe him that it's okay to pull away and he'll be there for you when you feel ready to come back. I still barely talk in therapy, but T says that what I do reveal is like little pearls. Keep giving your T those little pearls even if he needs a magnifying glass to see them.
More hugs.
Poet
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