Posted by Shortelise on May 9, 2005, at 14:07:21
In reply to getting it out...here****TRIGGER****, posted by B2chica on May 9, 2005, at 10:53:48
Something we forget when we are older and look back on things that happened when we were kids, is that we **didn't know then what we know now**. Hades, the next day after it happened when you were thinking "why didn't I" you weren't as scared, you were calm enough to think. If you look back now and know exactly what you "should" have done, you are looking at it with years more experience. And you look back now, and you're sure you "knew what was happenin" to your friend. Were you that saavy as a kid?
You reacted, and you ran. That's instinct. Instinct. The instinct that keeps us alive.
Karma? You don't deserve bad karma for this, mi chica, in my opnion.
Chica, I forgive you this, if that matters. I forgive that frightened young girl who didn't have the experience, the knowledge, the understanding, or the resources to deal with what was happening. I forgive her because no one looked at her, saw her fear and said, Hey, what's wrong? I forgive her. I forgive her because she didn't feel she had a safe person to go to. I forgive you for detaching yourself from your feeling in self-preservation. What else could you do?
Chica, I think you deserve to talk about this, and you deserve to understand what happened and understand the parts you played and what it meant. I don't think you deserve to be hated. I really really don't think you do.
Hugs,
ShortE
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