Posted by pinkeye on May 3, 2005, at 16:24:32
In reply to Re: Is Babble keeping me regressed? » pinkeye, posted by whirlpool on May 3, 2005, at 16:06:56
I don't know why Whirlpool, but your posts seem to trigger something in me. Kind of like strikes a chord, and it keeps bringing tears to my eyes. I don't know why though. In a good way. Not in a bad way.
My former T knows that I am going to a new T here. Maybe what you have said is possible. But I doubt it. More than likely, he thought he was hurting me more than helping me - because of my transference to him (at that time it was purely romantic transference - only now I understood it is actually more paternal kind of thing), and he had retired from practice also. So maybe he thought it is not a good idea to keep in touch or unethical to keep in touch. Or maybe he just got bored with me as well. I had been writing to him non stop for 2 and a half years, and maybe he just got fed up. Anyway, I thought he liked me as a patient, but in his last mail he had written there was really no question of liking me or disliking me. So I figured he must have just got fed up with me.
My non attachment to my current has nothing to do with him. She doesn't encourage any attachment. And she is not very warm or caring. In fact she is pretty cold - and doesn't empathize with me that much. But she is very capable, and has lot of insights. Except that she is almost like a blank slate most of the times, and it is hard to feel any attachment to her.
Thanks for listening to my story.. everybody else in this board are already fed up of hearing my story over and over again.
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