Posted by PM80 on April 28, 2005, at 7:59:14
In reply to Hmm, posted by alexandra_k on April 28, 2005, at 4:35:28
Maybe it safer for you to not view her in a the role of therapist. If she is your therapist then you have to be honest. She might see you for who you really are rather than the face you can modify to deal with the world. You take the risk of her not liking what she sees. Add to this the real rejection, or at least carelessness, of your pdoc and your emotions make a lot of sense. You have so much fear, it seems, inside yourself. I am so sorry for all the pain you've experienced that made this fear a very rational defense. But maybe the time has come when you do not need fear to protect you. Maybe you can trust your t - if you truly do not think that you can, then find another. Definitely discuss with her why she shared something that she said she would not, even to your pdoc. You have a right to know what her thinking was.
I see you here, on these boards, and you are beautiful inside- not perfect, but such a wonderful, worthwhile being. I am glad that you exist.
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