Posted by shrinking violet on April 5, 2005, at 19:29:11
In reply to Re: thank you all » shrinking violet, posted by pinkeye on April 4, 2005, at 13:55:02
Hi pinkeye,
Thank you for your response.
My first reaction is to defend my T, but.....At the same time, hearing thoughts like yours validates my gut feeling that she has done and said some questionable things as a T, and that maybe it's OK to let some of the blame fall on her without feeling like I'm attacking her or unappreciative of what she has tried to do. Also, I am not the easiest client in the world to deal with, and everything my T did, she did because she so very much wanted to help me. I can't fault her for that.....Some T's out there are very aware of their power, how what they say and do can affect clients so deeply, yet they use their power to the detriment of their clients, and they couldn't care less. My T isn't like that....Whatever wrongs she may have committed, she did so while truly believing they were the right things to do for me.
Yes, she did make my cat a toy (which he loves). In the grand scheme of things, though, I don't really think of that as anything mroe than a sweet gesture. I'm not sure WHY she did it, but it was very sweet and I'll always cherish it and the thought behind it.
As far as another T....No, I'm finished with therapy for the time being, if not forever. I went into this experience skeptical of therapy to begin with, but knew I probably needed some sort of counseling. I've had my original opinions validated, and moreso, and while I may "need" counseling, I also know it isn't for me. And if I could do it all over again.....I wouldn't. But, I can't go backwards, and all I can do is try to take what I have and trudge forward.
Thank you.
SV
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