Posted by pegasus on March 29, 2005, at 15:49:23
In reply to T gone, big things coming up, posted by pegasus on March 24, 2005, at 10:19:43
Thanks again everyone for the encouraging words about parenting etc. It's good to hear. As my husband keeps reminding me, even with parents as flawed as my own, they didn't *ruin* me. I'd say that I'm having a good life now. And if we do even a little better (which seems likely), my daughter will most likely turn out fine.
Unfortunately, today I had a visit with my midwife, who wanted to know more about the meds I'm on, and what it looks like when I'm not on them. I think she was considering suggesting that I go off of them before the birth (to avoid withdrawal in the baby, which does happen). So I gave her a brief synopsis of how crazy I am when not on meds. It was embarrassing and a little retraumatizing for me. She agreed that it was best to stay on what I'm still on. But the visit left me with a lingering sense of being fundamentally screwed up and kind of hopeless, if I can't even go without meds for a few weeks for the health of my baby. So, now I'm fighting that a little. And my T is still away. Whaaaa!
But it'll be ok. I just need to take extra care today, I think.
Thanks again for the support.
pegasus
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