Posted by pegasus on March 24, 2005, at 10:19:43
Hi babblers,
I just need a little support, if anyone can spare some. My T is out of town for two weeks, and it's making me a nervous. Really, I'm ok, considering how I used to feel when this happened, but it's still not easy.
I feel like I'm getting toward the end of my therapy. I never got so terribly attached to this T after I switched to her when my old T moved away. Part of that, I think, is that by the time I found her, I was settled on some good meds that worked, and had already made some big positive changes in my life and developed a lot of skills. Mostly what we've worked on is dealing with the loss of my old T. And that's really feeling a lot more resolved these days.
But, I still want her to be around, as a sort of backup. When she's gone, I feel like I'm working without a safety net. And I'm really pregnant, and getting worried about labor and being a parent, and my husband's growing anxiety, etc. I have some serious baggage there. I guess that's mostly what we talk about these days, and she's so reassuring and supportive.
Lately my meds are a bit less effective (probably because I have so much more blood volume), so that makes me a little more nervous and fragile-feeling too. I think I'm mostly ok, but I'm worried that I'm glued together more loosely than I'd like.
I think I just need to grit my teeth until she's back and we can talk again. But it feels helpful to write some of this down here, so it's not all going on only inside me.
Thanks for being there, babble!
pegasus
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