Posted by shrinking violet on March 26, 2005, at 20:27:04
In reply to Re: SV, posted by annierose on March 24, 2005, at 20:51:16
It seems my brain has a mind of its own, which is never a good thing. I'll conclude something, then that something will spiral and branch out into other conclusions, and I of course am convinced there could be no other plausible option, and then I find out I overreacted and, well, then I end up feeling like I do now (like a big idiot).
My T emailed me yesterday afternoon. She said she waited at our scheduled time, hoping to see me, but I never showed, and to please call to confirm our time for next week.
I'm dumbfounded, b/c when I left during the previous session, we left it open-ended and I didn't have an appointment scheduled. So, I'm not sure if it was a misunderstanding, or if my nutritionist told my T how upset I was, so my T sent a rather nonchalant email so I'd know she wants to see me, at least.
Of course, now the hard part is actually going to the session(s). Yes, I'm relieved that she still wants to see me after all I wrote to her, but, I'm scared as all heck of her reaction and what she'll say, (not to mention beyond mortified at all I have revealed to her, especially regarding our relationship) and I'm afraid just seeing her will get me upset and then I'll be a wreck all over again. Besides, if I see her, I do so with the knowledge that I only have a handful of sessions left, and each week comes closer to that last one. If I don't go, don't see her, I can avoid the whole final session thing and the lead-ups to that....But I don't want to miss out on some time with her that could be special, either.
Anyway, thank you all for your support. I'll be posting soon for ideas for a final goodbye gift. :-(
Take care everyone,
SV
> Since you are so uncomfortable, why not call her tomorrow and schedule another appointment sooner if possible? This is upsetting you. I think she does want you to be responsible for your therapy.
> Since she has some sort of secretary (mine doesn't) you don't have to talk to her directly. Leave a message you would like to schedule an appt asap. Please?
> -Annierose
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