Posted by Aphrodite on March 9, 2005, at 19:06:02
In reply to Re: My T is confusing me (sorry, long) » Aphrodite, posted by mair on March 9, 2005, at 18:27:45
> I think I will tell her tomorrow that she's making things too complicated for me right now. That I can only process a limited number of theories and solutions at the moment. And when she suggested coming 3x a week, I did suggest to her that it wasn't a very appealing idea since therapy is a trigger for me now. Her idea seems to be that she needs to keep me grounded in the present - to avoid ruminating about the larger issues of what another depressive episode might mean. I can't quite envision a session where I successfully stay grounded in the present.
I've worked for at least a year now on techniques to stay in the present. It's so, so hard for me. One thing that worked is when my T said to gauge my life on staying calm for 15 minutes, and then for another 15; in other words, since I can't stop thinking about the future, put some parameters on how far ahead I will think. It kinda sorta works when things are really unbearable.
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> I guess I was taken aback also because the offer of another session seemed so unlike her. There have been times when I thought I might really like to see her for an extra session or two, but I just never felt that I could ask for that.Even though the third session doesn't sound good now, at least the ice is broken for any future need for it. Perhaps you will feel less inhibited about asking since she's laid the groundwork by offering.
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> BTW - I would have been incredibly touched by your T's suggestion. I know it sounds like an incredibly difficult thing to do, but I hope you reach a point where you feel you can take him there.
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> MairThanks so much for the encouragement. I hope I get there, too.
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