Posted by daisym on February 21, 2005, at 14:19:32
In reply to My T Just Called Me, posted by mair on February 21, 2005, at 9:32:07
I'm glad she called to check on you. She obviously senses that things are shifting.
I can "hear" it in your posts too. It seems like you've started to recognize your attachment and you are questioning how smart this is on your part, because it leaves you open to hurt. It also sounds like you are getting near some sensitive subjects and need a lot of support around those. You definitely been posting more here. (Which I love!)
These strong attachment feelings are very scary. It is almost a knee jerk reaction to protect yourself from "allowing" yourself to need her. I can't help but think about two of the last few issues you brought up to her...worrying about her dying and not wanting to reveal your "worst" traits, like letting work pile up. It might be the vacation that is causing these feelings to surface but whatever the reason, I know they are disruptive.
Try to talk to her about them. I found that this is the best way to begin to understand the intense hold they have on me. I find that when I force myself not to call, not to be dependent on him, I get way more depressed. My therapist encourages me to "sink into these feelings" and jut allow myself to need him. It is way hard.
(((Mair))) I hope you share your session tomorrow.
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