Posted by mair on January 29, 2005, at 10:26:31
In reply to Re: My fault I guess » mair, posted by Dinah on January 29, 2005, at 9:42:25
Maybe the list of actions is not to make you feel better about your current job as much as to make you feel capable enough to find another?
My T knows I'd be better off not working where I am, but she knows it's complicated also and I think we've talked about it enough for her to understand my choices are limited. She also now understands how difficult it is to control my schedule, work flow etc. I'm sure she's disappointed to figure out that there isn't that much she can do for me in this area other than be supportive and try to counter my forays into extreme distortions about my worth and job competency.
I think she's doubly disappointed that it took us years to get me to a place where I could successfully negotiate a raise with my colleagues. And it's produced none of the hoped for benefits. I'm not suffused with good feelings that I finally crossed such a tough hurdle and it hasn't done a thing for my self esteem - if anything it almost places more pressure on me to produce.
Maybe once I pull myself out of my current morass, I'll look at things differently. I'm not quite ready to abandon all hope. {-;
Mair
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