Posted by Daisym on December 31, 2004, at 17:23:17
In reply to Re: My first double session day » daisym, posted by mair on December 31, 2004, at 10:12:57
Thank you for sharing your experience. I can't imagine going and getting my husband but that is a different thread, I think. I sometimes wonder too, what the other therapists in his building think. We switch off offices so I'm not always at the same place every day. But since I've been going for a long time, one of the other therapists says hi to me now.
Emotionally draining is a good way to describe how I felt. I'm like you, I watch the clock. I tried to give this up but I haven't been able to yet. I saw the bill for the month of December. It was two pages. He asked me if that made me feel bad. I said it is like seeing the intensity of my neediness on paper. He said next time he would write small and keep it on one page. :)
Thanks for saying that I'm not getting needier. In my more rational moments I know it is just another phase but right now it feels so bad. I was really angry at him about 2am this morning for letting me have another session yesterday and allowing me to open up this memory. I told him that on the phone today and he said he could see why I might feel that way. So we talked about how everything is all mixed up right now. He did say it was OK for me to be mad at him and still he wouldn't pull back from me. Good thing. I need him right now.
Grieving is such a long process.
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