Posted by 10derheart on December 17, 2004, at 8:51:41
In reply to Re: 10derhearted Thanks for asking!!, posted by messadivoce on December 17, 2004, at 2:52:00
Sounds pretty great. How awesome to know you have your boyfriend. That is something really special, to find someone you can love, count on and make plans with. If I recall, you are around my daughter's age (she's nearly 23)and some things remind me of her... Hope it's okay if I say that - believe me it's a high compliment as she is an amazing young woman. It's her 6-month anniversary today and she is married to the best guy ever....I've told him many times to clone himself (but about 20-25 years older) and I'm all set ! It's wonderful to see them together. But (and I never say this to anyone but old T.) there have been moments I get so envious/jealous I almost break down. Never let them see that, although my daughter would understand I know. Not often, as I'm genuinely thrilled for her, but when you're alone yourself sometimes it suddenly hits you..but ah, well, that's a thread for the relationship (or lack thereof) board.How brave to sit and read the whole letter! I am so impressed. I could never do it. Closest I got was allowing old T. to read two long letters (but not in my presence). For me that was big, and it did result in wonderful sessions. We each go at our pace, I suppose. I think you're doing an important thing with that letter. For one thing, taking such rough circumstances and finding your own way to release and process the feelings. I'll bet your T. is pleased and impressed, too, and it sounds like she's showing it. You sound better, so I'm glad of that.
Funny, new T. called a few minutes ago and offered me a cancellation this afternoon. I took it, of course. Whew - a relief he's getting better. But even bigger than the appointment itself, on the phone when I answered, he identified himself and asks how I'm doing. I say "okay", but it's that "okay" that means sort of, kind of, not really, I'm not sure - all in a slight inflection of tone. Remember, he's talked to me maybe three times before briefly on the phone. And right away he says, "Really? Only sort of okay, I think." To me, that was important. I know I am looking for the subtle signs of the great intuition and sensitivity of my old T. That seemed encouraging.
I'm not nearly ready for out with the old, but you inspire me with your attitude... Hope to see you post as often as you can - same for me, and thanks for all the warmth and support. - 10DH
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