Posted by 10derheart on December 17, 2004, at 1:02:09
In reply to Re: Backsliding(way- too long) » 10derheart, posted by gardenergirl on December 16, 2004, at 19:33:26
Thanks, GG, your comments are always so steadying and kind. Yes, I'm really angry w/new T., but quite concerned, too. I know enough of his background and reputation (former military, like me)to wonder at the not calling patients, or having someone else do it, when that happened 2 days ago. Just doesn't fit. He works with two social worker partners, but no support staff. They all manage through voicemail systems that page them automatically. I guess if it's afternoon today (Friday) with no response, I could call one of them.. Awkward, but maybe better than me going crazy all weekend.I can't add much to your description of my former T. as a lovely man. He most certainly is lovely, in every way you can imagine. Sheesh, that sounded...errr, interesting. Maybe my sense of humor is returning a bit. Or I'm so tired from crying, I'm punchy. (small, weak laugh at self)
He has worked extremely hard to maintain boundries, and I think I have helped us not *do therapy* by email as that would be unethical and technically illegal as he's not credentialled in my state any longer. It's a terribly razor thin line he's walked, and I'm sure some would disapprove, but I think we both just know in our bones this has been vital for my healing, as well as educational and important for him, even with all his experience. He freely talked to me about lack of training in termination and never having really experienced the depth of what this can be like for someone as bonded as me. He says I am unique in his experience in my quest to feel everything and find meaning in the most painful parts of transition and separation. He said last week I have remarkable courage. I'm so blessed to know him.
Funny, old T. didn't even answer my email, which is unusual, too, especially this kind of upset message. Oh, well, I only email him at work, so he may have gone home early and not read it. We've had problems with his server bouncing back messages 8 hours later, too, so I'm trying not to panic. If I did, I'd say old and new Ts conspired to abandon and confuse me all in one day, and that's just not funny.
Thanks again for making the time for everyone here. You are a treasure and are/will be one heck of a T.!
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