Posted by 10derheart on December 17, 2004, at 1:26:28
In reply to Re: Backsliding(way- too long) » 10derheart, posted by fallsfall on December 16, 2004, at 20:08:01
> It sounds to me like you are doing really, really well! And like you have two wonderful therapists.
*** Thanks for bringing me back to the bigger picture a little. After all, one or two days are just one or two days. Old T. thinks I'm doing really well, too. In fact, I can tell he's a little surpised and happy I was willing to start working with someone else. And yes, if I can ever get him well and engaged, perhaps new therapist will be wonderful, too.
> Cancellations are always hard. But last minute "I'm going to the hospital" cancellations from someone you don't know well must be the worst!
**** Yup. Guess I rarely had any cancellations with old T. But you just made me think of an awful time back in Feb '04 when old therapist had his clinic staff call and cancel all his appts. for 2 weeks with almost no notice. And, the staff told people it was for "health reasons"! I was beside myself worrying and it was a terrible episode. Found out later it was nothing too awful, but old T. got an earful of my opinion on what you should let staff say! I still remember the *mask* slipping just long enough for him to say, with a tone of wonder, almost, "You were really that worried about me?" DUH! Anyway, maybe my unconscious went to that place in this instance. Transference plain as day. Makes sense, I think.
> Do a little distraction - watch a good movie? Do something you want to do (even if it isn't "productive"). Eat ice cream, and then eat some more ice cream.
Yes, I watched a movie, called a friend and ate homemade fudge. Yum!
> Accept that the cancellation has upset you, but recognize that it is perfectly reasonable to be upset by that. Everything will sort itself out, I'm sure. And I'm so glad you have your old therapist to hold your hand through this.
***Great advice. It's just complicated as I'm trying tiny bit by bit to let that hand go. I don't want to , but have to. It's a strange time I suppose. Just hope he answers my email tomorrow. I trust him more than anyone on earth, yet still I get scared sometimes that he's forgotten all about me in an instant. ouch.
Falls, you are wonderful. I always enjoy reading your posts. Hope you are doing well. Thanks so much for caring.
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