Posted by littleone on November 16, 2004, at 14:56:25
In reply to Re: Hello, I'm Daisy and I go to therapy a lot..., posted by Daisym on November 16, 2004, at 12:45:02
> do you ever worry that what you see as monsters, everyone else sees as dust bunnies under the bed?
Absolutely!!
I've been talking to my T about how horrible my dad was. The emotional and verbal abuse. The rages. I had to call my dad on the weekend to tell him that I won't be spending Christmas with him or the rest of family this year. He doesn't know I'm in therapy. And he certainly doesn't realise that what he does is abuse. So I was expecting certain negative reactions from him.
Instead, he was the perfect dad. Concerned about me. Tried to get me to talk. Disappointed but respected my decision. Reassured me.
THAT'S NOT MY DAD!!!! He has never ever done that before in his life. But it left me so confused. Maybe he was a nice dad. He throws furniture around. He was nice to me on the weekend. He calls me an idi@t and stupid. Dustbunnies and monsters.
And I see/hear/read some stuff that happens to other people and I know that what I suffered was nothing in comparison. But it's just left me so f**ked up anyway. Dustbunnies and monsters.
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