Posted by Daisym on November 16, 2004, at 12:45:02
In reply to Re: Hello, I'm Daisy and I go to therapy a lot... » daisym, posted by babbgal on November 15, 2004, at 17:18:48
<<<Wow - actually that's what it is. I trust him and I trust that he will take care of me, given my truths. Maybe it's unusual that there was something about him made me trust him immediately. In any case, I thank my lucky stars for him and that he keeps things safe when we're taking on big scary monsters.
I smiled at your "wow" -- funny how we right things automatically and then it hits us that they are true. I'm glad you have him.
As far as big scary monsters, do you ever worry that what you see as monsters, everyone else sees as dust bunnies under the bed? I'm in the middle of those feelings again. "Things aren't so bad compared to other people, it is my husband who is sick, not me; the csa stuff is 30 years old, shouldn't I be over it by now?" You know those thoughts... My therapist told me yesterday that I shouldn't underestimate how damaged my trust system is and how that leads to resistance of support because I'm sure people will fail me. But I know I need support so I've got myself on a teeter-totter -- "I can do it alone" -- "No, I can't" -- "I can do it alone" -- "No I can't". I laugh when he imitates me but he has me down now.
:)
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