Posted by babbgal on November 15, 2004, at 17:18:48
In reply to Re: Hello, I'm Daisy and I go to therapy a lot... » babbgal, posted by daisym on November 13, 2004, at 18:33:36
>I always try to look at it from the spouses
>point of view, do they feel threatened, or
>worried?I think with my husband, it's worry. If I'm going to therapy three times a week, he thinks it's a sign of SOMETHING IS WRONG, whereas I see it as ongoing support around things I need to talk about. I was diagnosed bipolar II last year, and for the longest time he didn't mention it or seem bothered by it. But now stuff is bubbling to the surface, and I think he sees my sometimes increased therapy visits as a potential sign that something "bad" is going to happen. I also think he knows this can be an irrational thought, and I also think he gets scared sometimes as I fight my way through things. I think my depressions, especially, scare him.
> <<<I love that! Can you teach me how to have
>that attitude? It takes me awhile to get to
>stuff. I don't actively avoid it, I just can't
>figure out how to jump in sometimes. Mondays
>are the hardest. I know what you mean about
>momentum, in that sense.:)
I think what really got me to "bring it on," is my previous experience with therapy; I went for 3 years and felt it didn't help at all. Of course back then I wasn't diagnosed properly. Then I got mad that I wasted so much time and I vowed that this would be different, now that my pdoc had hooked me up with a great T. I started taking notes like mad in therapy, to the point where my T. would kind of chuckle at me; my response was, I'm determined here, and I don't want to forget the things that are really important. And my T. took me seriously. I think I took copious notes for the first 8 months; now I do so less regularly.
There are certainly things that are difficult for me to talk about, and I tread gingerly in those areas, but I guess I go in there with the feeling like, I'm here to learn and grow, and I'm just going to put as much on the table as I can, and I know that my T. will take care of me.
Wow - actually that's what it is. I trust him and I trust that he will take care of me, given my truths. Maybe it's unusual that there was something about him made me trust him immediately. In any case, I thank my lucky stars for him and that he keeps things safe when we're taking on big scary monsters.
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