Posted by sunny10 on November 8, 2004, at 11:07:18
In reply to CBT » sunny10, posted by gardenergirl on November 5, 2004, at 23:12:48
gg-
I have basically been weaned down to a session every two weeks.
Kind of like "maintenance" appointments. But I don't feel that I've been "shrunk", if you know what I mean...
I still feel that my inner child ( the one that ALWAYS shows up to REACT to situations) is still fully involved- and not happy! Yes, the grown up me is fully cognizant of what is logical vs illogical, but then feelings are not logical, are they? And this comes out in ALL of my interpersonal relationships...
at work- with constructive criticism,with my SO whenever we have a discussion that is supposed to be a debate- I always feel that he thinks I'm stupid and worthless,
with my father- whom I have still not called since I didn't show up the Sunday before last at a family brunch (because I was fighting with my SO)- simply because I know I have to sit there and listen to him moan and sigh about what a huge disappointment I am to him...
So why am I down to "maintenance checks" ? Just because I am a first class actress and can act; therefore "survive" each day?? Is that all there is to life? Should I just be "maintained" as I am just because I can manage to get up and go to work everyday? Am I being "spoiled" to expect SOMETHING more out of life?
Any feedback at all would be appreciated, thanks,
-sunny10
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