Posted by Jadah on September 19, 2004, at 20:57:01
In reply to been watching this thread..., posted by kindgirl on September 19, 2004, at 14:55:48
thank you for your feedback. I do agree that I need to find another therapist.... I think I might have someone in mind. I would like to try a few sessions with him first (or with whomever) before I leave so it is a smooth transaction. Things I have thought about that concern me.... will my insurance cover me seeing two therapist even if it is short term... I wouldnt want my T to find out Im leaving that way. Im afraid I will constantly be comparing a new therapist with mine now, and in that sense they could never win. Will I seduce/persue a new therapist or hurt from overwhelming transference and impending rejection? Can they give me the love that my T is (holding me when I cry, slipping a tear or two when I talk about something tragic in my life, giving me extra time if I need it, calling me outside hours when Im upset....hugging me after, during session. I know I cant expect an "I love you" from another therapist. To stay with him on a theraputic level means hurt, to leave means the hole in my stomach will never get filled. Are you guys starting to see that Im not as together as you thought I was. Whats really weird is that my T and I could literally be colleagues. Professionally we are on the same tier. I just chose to step out of this feild for awhile. We both agreed that we have more talking to do. Ill keep you all posted. Live in my drama....dont create your own.
Jadah
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