Posted by shortelise on September 4, 2004, at 0:19:16
Ok, ok, so therapy is not supposed to be a re-traumatisation. I get that.
But listen, it so much feels like it!
I lived through emotional neglect as a child, and I know, I know that therapy is supposed to heal that, and that my therapist believes that it does.
But here is my gut telling me that I am living through the same thing over again, that I am again being sent away. This time I am meant to understand where I was incapable of understanding when I was a child. So, great, I feel the same stuff but with instead of being emotionally trod upon by my parent, I am having to let go of an extremely important attachment of my own free will, and I am supposed to find it painful but perfectly acceptable BECAUSE I AM NOT A CHILD - I AM AN ADULT.
Help me here please. He says it'll begin to feel ok, but it feels like someone is ripping me away from air.
I'll go to sleep tongiht repeating to myself, I am an adult, I can separate from my psychiatrist.
It feels like he's admonishing me for not acting my age. I am not my age...
There is nothing here I haven't said to him, and I'll keep saying it until either it isn't true anymore or I find something better to say.
Help. Please.
ShortE
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