Posted by Skittles on September 3, 2004, at 17:32:59
In reply to Re: Dealing w/ after T session » Skittles, posted by B2chica on September 3, 2004, at 13:51:40
Well, I sucked it up and called. Her response, "I'm so sorry you are having a hard time. Would you like to come in this afternoon? I could see you in an hour." I could not have asked for anything better from her. And she usually takes Friday afternoons off, so she stayed later to see me. So, not only did I feel like my needs were important to her, I also had the luxury of taking a little extra time because there was no one waiting to go in after me.
I spilled everything, and you know what? It felt great! Worrying about talking about it was at the VERY LEAST 1,000 times worse than actually doing it. Once I got it out, I found myself thinking, "What was so bad about that?" I didn't even really cry much. Keeping quiet for so long turned something painful into an uncontrollable monster. And I've been having a little trouble in the trust department but I've found that the intimacy grows as I open up. Today I let myself be completely vulnerable and I found it easier to make eye contact with her and I finally saw that she has the kindest eyes. I felt so "held" and cared for. I can't remember who said it, but it IS "Magic" and I'm glad I have a T with the gift.
So, would it be inappropriate or goofy to send a thank you card? I talked earlier about not being able to reciprocate because of the strangeness of the theraputic relationship, but that is something I COULD do to let her know how much I appreciate her giving me a little of her time off.
One more thing and I'll give up the floor: If there's something you're holding back, let it go. Just close your eyes, squish up your face, take a deep breath and blurt it out. You will feel liberated!!
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